If you listen, at one time, to everyone then you'll understand none.
It is society that named me. If Some say that ones name has something to do with who I am . But I
believe that it is only I that CHOOSES who I will be. Someone used to
tell me that I should not complicate things, that I should remember
but one word "I". The names that I got is not a CHOICE on my part but
a CHOICE made by my parents. I have all the POWER and the CAPACITY to
change my name or to GO BEYOND MY NAME. I have but one name, and that
is "I". My name is just used my Society to cluster me and to bind me
with my relatives.
This "I" is driven by two emotions, that of ANGER and LOVE. I have
felt ANGER whenever I see imbalance in the system. I am ANGERED
whenever I see people not given an opportunity because their secotr
is marginalized. Perhaps I am ANGRY because I myself is a constant
client to Intimidation. It is my CHOICE to feel intimidated but I
can always CHOOSE to LOVE. I can CHOOSE to LOVE Life and LOVE
beauty. For LOVE is an emotion that comes to every man like the
chirping of birds. It is but a natural phenomenon but unless one
notice it then he will not realize how beautiful it is and how much
more its rhythm can do for a person.
Someone always told me to focus on myself, to focus on the "I".
Iniatialy I find this hard to do because I am used to utilize ANGER
that is generated from my surrounding. Although there is nothing to
be angry of, I find things that can be a source of that anger.
Sometimes, I can influence people to mock me, to undermine me so that
this ANGER can grow. I now realized that I have abussed this emotion.
It could have benefited me when I FOCUS and used ANGER to do well in
examinations. But it should not be longer than 15 minutes or this
Anger will reverberate to my immediate environment and might harm
others. What we see right now in our society are people that
supressed this ANGER and had subconcsiosly have taken control of
them. This is why we see a lot of demons in public offices. If you
are using ANGER to create HAPPINESS, I think this will not be
possible if your ANGER is not driven by LOVE. ANGER can be chaotic,
but if it is INSPIRED by LOVE then that Anger can be like an
Adrenaline Ruch that will allow one to achieve more. When we
exercise, we create tensions in our muscles, but these should not be
all tension. We have to combine tension and relaxation in our
exercise for us not to exhaust our body. This is similar to using
such emotion for the "I". I should always take CONTROL. I have read
of military gennerals commanding their armies with an ANGRY voice.
The men did not follow the general because they were agitated, they
follow him because their LOVE for their country or their kingdom is
internalized in each one of them. Perhaps, the best way to command
people is to COMMAND them without them knowing. We never command
people to laugh when we deliver a joke or when happiness reverberate
from us, the power is so strong that this people just laugh. I
believe this is Charisma. You influence people without showing yor
FORCE, but such FORCE that comes from within, is more powerful than
any man made arms.
These two emotions, of LOVE and ANGER, brings with it PASSION. Can
one be ANGRY at the same time be HAPPY? I think this can not be the
case, but one can LOVE at the same time feel HAPPY. Therefore it is
only when a person feel LOVE that true happiness comes into being. As
I have mentioned in earlier chapter, happiness in the highest level
is realized when it is reverberated to the immediate environment. I
believe that the power of LOVE has the capacity to nourish HAPPINESS,
ad thus, bring enlightenment. Isn't the Buddha is pictured as someone
who constantly smiles. I believe tha HAPPINESS is not manifested when
you always laugh, it is manifested when you FEEL LOVE inside you.
How do I LOVE… I am used to experience ANGER that is uncontrolled to
the point that my immediate environment are influenced by this anger.
I was used in creating disorder in the system. I used this ANGER to
move me forward but it is nly now that I realized that I hav abused
it, that is why its Negative effects takes toil in my being. I
believe that LOVE coupled with ANGER is one singel emotion of great
magnitude. This one single emotion, this one single source of Energy
which comes from "I" could make oneself focus on the ESSSENTIAL and
undertake such with enthusiasm. LOVE and ANGER cannot be separated,
it is already there. One cannot isolate one from the other. The more
important thing is to make use of this energy to achieve ones
PURPOSE. We can only find that purpose through God and not from
other people.
Remember, it is alright to be ANGRY, but only for fifteen minutes.
Longer than that, that ANGER can no longer be controlled. We have to
recognize LOVE whenever we want to use ANGER. For it is thru LOVE
that we will know our purpose… It is through LOVE that we our lives
will get its MEANING.